I can't tell myself what to do now.
I can be laughing like mad but i'm dying inside.
My heart sinks everytime i hear him talking about her.
I should be happy. Should i?
But my mood doesn't follow my mind.
I Hate Myself.
I want to be like last time where i have no worries for th future.
I know there are people who cares about me.
They didn't want me to be like this.
But what can i do now?
It is not that i didn't want my problems to be solved.
But i don't know what to do.
Every night i have been asking myself ;
Am i right to do this? Am i being foolish to cry over such matters?
Am i troubling over something that is not a trouble for me?
I really want to be th cheerful girl you guys see me as all th time.
But i realise that when we grow up, we tend to have more troubles.
More troubles that i can't solve by myself.
It makes me thinks that i'm a useless bitch.
I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost.
I wanna give up.
Now.
I'm really tired.
Physically and emotionally.
Just like what he says ;
If you love someone, let him go.
If he comes back, its yours.
If he doesn't, he never will.
It is not meant to be.